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Yeah, I sorta fell into it, hard, after I got us back to Boston. It's been an issue.
[Clearly if he had a sober buddy and got on Damien about drinking.]
[Clearly if he had a sober buddy and got on Damien about drinking.]
Pretty sure I called you that one time for exactly that purpose. Besides, what am I supposed to do, complain that Sam's dating someone now?
[Oh not that long ago at all.]
I don't know what I want to talk about, Damien. But everything's been bad since I came back to Boston and Agent Green died and Joan took over at the AM, and Sam's dating another AM employee and Joan's maybe dating another AM employee and what the fuck am I supposed to do with all of this?
I don't know what I want to talk about, Damien. But everything's been bad since I came back to Boston and Agent Green died and Joan took over at the AM, and Sam's dating another AM employee and Joan's maybe dating another AM employee and what the fuck am I supposed to do with all of this?
I mean, not officially. The whole grieving over Owen dying trying to save her life has slowed things down. But yeah. With an atypical with super speed. He helped save all of our lives then.
[Yeah, podunk Colorado is a VERY serious distance to go for a weekend.]
Where would I even go? I fucking blew my job. I can't go see my parents. I can't...
Fuck, I just don't know what to do anymore.
Where would I even go? I fucking blew my job. I can't go see my parents. I can't...
Fuck, I just don't know what to do anymore.
Well I can't go out of country easily. And if I leave, who is there to keep Alex company?
That might be sending a message I don't want to send.
We're trying. But asking a guy hitting on me on a road trip implies interest.
[He tucks his lower lip between his teeth as he tries to figure out what the hell to even say.]
It won’t help anything… might make it worse, but it definitely won’t help…
[He hesitates, almost leaves it at that, but a thought occurs to him and he decides to follow it.]
I’m not saying it for now, but… what’s some place you want to visit, full-tilt tourism and everything. Rome? Germany? Where do you wanna go?
It won’t help anything… might make it worse, but it definitely won’t help…
[He hesitates, almost leaves it at that, but a thought occurs to him and he decides to follow it.]
I’m not saying it for now, but… what’s some place you want to visit, full-tilt tourism and everything. Rome? Germany? Where do you wanna go?
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I once... I wanted to see the world. Hit all the touristy spots, and then find the quiet country-sides and get all of that working too. I wanted to see it all. I asked Sam to go too. She didn't. She wouldn't.
[A smile touches his lips at the thought because it feels so incredibly Mark. And it’s a little sad because, in another life, where he hadn’t fucked things up to the point of no return, he definitely would have gone on that trip with him. Damien knows plenty of places in the states just like that. He’d show him all the ones he knew, and they could find new ones together.
But.
It’s not going to happen, and that makes his chest tighten.]
I’m sorry she wouldn’t go… [Its strange to find he actually means that. Yes, he’d rather be the one Mark wanted to take, but he gets all the reasons that isn’t possible. And if he can’t, then he’d like Mark to at least get to see everything he dreamed of seeing.
Doesn’t sound like it’s happening any time soon, though.] Sounds like it’d be fun…
[ ‘I would go with you,’ burns a place at the end of his tongue, but he keeps it to himself. ]
But.
It’s not going to happen, and that makes his chest tighten.]
I’m sorry she wouldn’t go… [Its strange to find he actually means that. Yes, he’d rather be the one Mark wanted to take, but he gets all the reasons that isn’t possible. And if he can’t, then he’d like Mark to at least get to see everything he dreamed of seeing.
Doesn’t sound like it’s happening any time soon, though.] Sounds like it’d be fun…
[ ‘I would go with you,’ burns a place at the end of his tongue, but he keeps it to himself. ]
[Mark knows what is being felt without Damien saying it. Because, looking back, he had fun when they were together. Until he was forced to talk, and prevented from reaching out to Joan. The rest? The rest was nice.]
I don't know that Alex trusts being that far from the AM and his medication yet, though. So I sit around here, trying to find an answer to life.
I don't know that Alex trusts being that far from the AM and his medication yet, though. So I sit around here, trying to find an answer to life.
[He doesn't know what to do with that.]
I just... I want things to be about me for a change. But in a good way.
I just... I want things to be about me for a change. But in a good way.
I don't know how.
[He hadn't been able to help the fear of traveling alone. He just can't do it.]
But I guess I can at least head out of town for the weekend. Not far, but away.
[He hadn't been able to help the fear of traveling alone. He just can't do it.]
But I guess I can at least head out of town for the weekend. Not far, but away.
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