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[atypical_echo]

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[atypical_echo]

I once... I wanted to see the world. Hit all the touristy spots, and then find the quiet country-sides and get all of that working too. I wanted to see it all. I asked Sam to go too. She didn't. She wouldn't.

[heydrb]

[A smile touches his lips at the thought because it feels so incredibly Mark. And it’s a little sad because, in another life, where he hadn’t fucked things up to the point of no return, he definitely would have gone on that trip with him. Damien knows plenty of places in the states just like that. He’d show him all the ones he knew, and they could find new ones together.

But.

It’s not going to happen, and that makes his chest tighten.]

I’m sorry she wouldn’t go… [Its strange to find he actually means that. Yes, he’d rather be the one Mark wanted to take, but he gets all the reasons that isn’t possible. And if he can’t, then he’d like Mark to at least get to see everything he dreamed of seeing.

Doesn’t sound like it’s happening any time soon, though.] Sounds like it’d be fun…

[ ‘I would go with you,’ burns a place at the end of his tongue, but he keeps it to himself. ]

[atypical_echo]

[Mark knows what is being felt without Damien saying it. Because, looking back, he had fun when they were together. Until he was forced to talk, and prevented from reaching out to Joan. The rest? The rest was nice.]

I don't know that Alex trusts being that far from the AM and his medication yet, though. So I sit around here, trying to find an answer to life.

[heydrb]

Mark… [He sighs his name out in a soft huff.] you have to live for yourself.

You have earned every fucking right to just… be selfish for once. Do what you wanna do, quit living for other people.

[atypical_echo]

[He doesn't know what to do with that.]

I just... I want things to be about me for a change. But in a good way.

[heydrb]

Then make it happen. I don’t know what that looks like, but whatever it is? Just do it.

[atypical_echo]

I don't know how.

[He hadn't been able to help the fear of traveling alone. He just can't do it.]

But I guess I can at least head out of town for the weekend. Not far, but away.

[heydrb]

Sometimes that’s all it takes… nobody said it has to be a cross-country trip.

[His voice is quiet, softer than usual. He likes the idea of Mark doing something for himself for once.]

[atypical_echo]

[He just... doesn't know. Man he really doesn't.]

Guess I'm just afraid there are other AM divisions that would go after me. Maybe I'll agree to check in with The Order and see if they can ensure I come back.

[heydrb]

The fuck is The Order? [His face scrunches in confusion though the other man can’t see it.]

[atypical_echo]

Oh man, that's... I have so much to tell you. Sit down, okay? I need to make this cup of tea, then I'll head up to the guest room and we'll talk."

Because he was there for the research, and he'd had time to talk to Chloe about stuff too.

[heydrb]

I’ve been sitting down- [He huffs a soft laugh at that.

But he can’t hate the idea of listening to Mark try to catch him up on everything he missed… He likes the sound of his voice.]

[atypical_echo]

[So much that hes missed. Mark has a running quiet discussion of what the tour was like while he makes the tea, and once that's done he moves upstairs. Which works for him. And once he's curled up in a seat he starts to talk about the research they did with Owen to oust Wadsworth. Then the Order stuff. And then he just barrelled on to all that happened at the AM when he was there the day Helen got out.

And turned out he needed to talk about shit.]