Oh come on, Mark. Nothing about that whole group was patient-doctor confidential. We were ALL in each other’s business. Some of us more successfully than others but still.
[…]
Before I realized she might really know someone like me? Some of it was an act…same spiel I’d given so many other therapists before her. But I think… I think a lot about that night. I was not…in a good place when I found her.
I know people would rather if I wasn’t a real person, just keep me the cartoon villain in your heads, because it’s easier to hate someone who you think of as pure evil. But I’m not… I’m not the devil’s incarnate. I’m a guy that’s had a really fucked up life.
And sometimes I really think your sister saved my life that night. Sometimes I wonder if she regrets that.
Nah. She would have found another way to get you out. And I wouldn’t have fucked everything up even more in the process. You all would have been better off if she’d just kicked me out of her office.
[He shouldn’t be doing this. He’s not supposed to be doing this. He knows that. He knows it’s part of the deal, to not put his trauma on Mark like this because it’s not fair, but he can’t stop. ]
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on 2022-06-25 10:53 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2022-06-25 11:04 pm (UTC)Nothing about that whole group was patient-doctor confidential.
We were ALL in each other’s business.
Some of us more successfully than others but still.
[…]
Before I realized she might really know someone like me?
Some of it was an act…same spiel I’d given so many other therapists before her.
But I think… I think a lot about that night. I was not…in a good place when I found her.
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on 2022-06-25 11:10 pm (UTC)cw: talk of previous suicidal ideation
on 2022-06-25 11:21 pm (UTC)But it was worse, then.
I know people would rather if I wasn’t a real person, just keep me the cartoon villain in your heads, because it’s easier to hate someone who you think of as pure evil.
But I’m not… I’m not the devil’s incarnate. I’m a guy that’s had a really fucked up life.
And sometimes I really think your sister saved my life that night.
Sometimes I wonder if she regrets that.[…
…
……]
Did you seriously just called me cowboy?
Re: cw: talk of previous suicidal ideation
on 2022-06-25 11:36 pm (UTC)And yes I did.
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on 2022-06-25 11:48 pm (UTC)And I wouldn’t have fucked everything up even more in the process.
You all would have been better off if she’d just kicked me out of her office.
[He shouldn’t be doing this.
He’s not supposed to be doing this.
He knows that. He knows it’s part of the deal, to not put his trauma on Mark like this because it’s not fair, but he can’t stop. ]
I’m sorry.
I should go.
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on 2022-06-26 01:41 am (UTC)Get some rest Damien.
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on 2022-06-26 02:20 am (UTC)Goodnight, Mark.
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on 2022-06-26 02:39 am (UTC)